Maybe I've Read Too Many Books

Do you ever get the feeling that you're not at the center of your own life? It's this feeling that you're only a supporting character in the action of other people's lives. Your problems might constitute a paragraph, maybe even a whole chapter on occasion, in a novel, but you never get your own story. Your friends' problems are more important or interesting than yours. You feel like you get overlooked. You aren't trying to just ride on the coat tails of others, you aren't trying to just get by without reaching for your dreams. But somehow you always find yourself stuck on the sidelines.

And you get tired of being the friend that laughs at the jokes or the friend that bandages the wounds or the friend that stands behind you while you make the daring leaps.

You wonder if you'll ever get to be the protagonist in your own life. You wonder when your prince will come or when you'll save the day or when you'll have your denouement.

And then you wonder if you'll always have to be the minor character. Someone has to do it. Not everyone can be the hero.

But you hope maybe, just maybe, one day your life will turn around and you'll realize your storyline does matter. Someone out there is reading and rooting for you to have a happy ending.

Or maybe that's just me.